As human beings, we fear many things, some fears are valid, like fear of wild animals, fear of accidents and of harmful things. However today I would like to write about the fear of others’ opinions, the fear of judgement, the fear that we are not good enough.
This has been largely a year where I have tried to intentionally “feel the fear but do it anyway”. It is the year that I have deliberately worn shoes that were obviously bigger than me, afraid, but I wore them anyway.
As the
year began, I promised myself that when I am about to say no to a challenge, and realize that the no is informed by fear, I will quickly say yes and figure out later. This has
landed me in many adrenaline moments, but it is in these moments that I have learnt
and grown the most. Has this been easy? Absolutely not. There are times I have committed
to do something and on the material morning, I have woken up shivering,
wondering what I got myself into, and wished I could call in sick and cancel
the commitment. Yet every time I have been bold enough to face the fears, I
have later wondered, what was so hard?
Have I conquered fear completely? Madam Fearless huh?! Absolutely not, If
anything, as I write this, I am afraid that you might read this and disregard me as a not good enough writer. I am afraid of a huge assignment coming up in two weeks, but I will do
it scared. I will feel the fear, but I will do it anyway.