Alone But Not Alone_ Reflections from Grief

After a long hiatus of 'running out of ink', today I decided to pick up my pen and test if it still writes after my "Inkdrops of Hope" book.  Well, not quite, I just thought dad would be happy to see me writing again. So here goes my attempt to make daddy in heaven proud while he watches and cheers on.

It is exactly 52 days since daddy rested abruptly and God knows how tough this season has been. I have daily wished I would wake up and find that it was just a dream that ends. Some days good as I remember the many lives he touched and shaped. Some days sad as I remember that I am alone facing this difficult, tough and unforgiving world. As I watched daddy go down the grave, I felt like I was on my own. "Me against the world" almost literally.

Reality dawned when everyone left the burial and went back to their respective homes. Silence engulfed our home and the birds also seemed to have gone on a break from chirping.

The weeks that followed the burial were an unwelcome reminder.  I realized we are cultured to avoid the grieving for fear that they may cry and we will not be sure what to do with them. With  time, I have learnt to perfect the art of putting myself together until I can get to the next available washroom where I can cry without making people around uncomfortable. It has worked well. But a shoulder to lean on is definitely better than a toilet seat. Well, I have had some shoulders and I am grateful for them, but probably we can do better at supporting the grieving. Not by avoiding them but by being closer, because grief is not contagious. Words may lack but sometimes presence is sufficient.

Grief has taught me that I have a father in heaven, who is actually my father's father. This has been the most comforting reality. A reminder from above that though alone, I am not alone. I have a  Father who art in heaven. I am slowly learning to ask God directly, the things that I would have asked dad. 

To anyone going through grief, I pray you find the comfort in knowing that though separated from your loved one physically, you are not on your own. Your Father in heaven is watching over you and it shall be well. The Bible says Tell the righteous it shall be well with them, ( it may not be well now, but it shall be well) I am not there yet, but I know, It shall be well, in due time. In the meantime, You are not alone.Hugs.